The War Within: Conquering The Spirit Of Fear

There I was, living a quiet, calm, and complacent life. Comfortably avoiding risks. Living under a false sense of security until I decided I was going to boldly step out of my comfort zone, dare to dream and visualize it come into fruition.

Vision boards are not my thing, so I grabbed my journal and wrote down a list of actionable steps I planned to take in pursuit of my dreams.

But suddenly...

The voice of Doubt began to reason with Logic and added strength to Fear. I began to grow apprehensive. Then, doubt turned into procrastination, and procrastination eventually led to a surrendering. I started to give up on all hopes to pursue my dreams.

I allowed fear to manifest itself in my life, and it. Took. Over. I feared the unknown. I feared  failure. I feared comparison. I feared being met with a challenge. I feared loss of control. I feared every potential negative outcome.

Tired of cowering to fear, I've decided enough is enough. I've decided to use fear as a tool. Yes, Fear is one of our most infamous adversaries, but you can also use it to your advantage. To push you, to strengthen you, to reveal your weakness, and to shed light on areas you need to grow.

And I've decided to do exactly that, transmute the energy of fear and use it for my highest good.

Through, this process I have come to realize how much my emotions were rooted in a false perception of reality. In psychology this false perception of reality is termed as a Cognitive Distortion. 

Cognitive Distortions: Are simply ways that our mind convinces us of something that isn’t really true. These inaccurate thoughts are usually used to reinforce negative thinking or emotions — telling ourselves things that sound rational and accurate, but really only serve to keep us feeling bad about ourselves.

Definition taken from: PsychCentral

Here is a modified exercise I have learned in therapy which has allowed me to transform my thinking, and transmute negative emotions into positive energy.

Transmute Negative Energy And Balance Your Thoughts

This exercise is loosely based on a psychological tool called the Dysfunctional Thought Record. The purpose of this exercise is to turn your awareness inward, focus on the source of any negative emotions, and to bring your thoughts back into balance. It is easily accessible, all you need to complete this exercise is your journal (or a sheet of paper) and a pen.

  1. Turn your attention inward.
  2. Where is the feeling/emotion coming from? 
  3. What sensations do I feel in my body when experiencing this emotion?
  4. What thoughts come to mind?
  5. What evidence do I have to support these thoughts?
  6. What evidence do I have against it?
  7. What is the most realistic outcome?
  8. Write down a positive affirmation.

By simply going through this process, whatever negative emotions I would be feeling eventually released.  

Disclaimer: I am NOT a licensed mental health specialist. However, I found this tool VERY useful when dealing with negative emotions. So please I advise, if you're dealing with a situation or emotions that may seem beyond your level of control to seek professional help.